It's been 3 weeks since we began our Bible study on 1 John. I have honestly been dreading this post because this past week has been a difficult one for me. Every time I read, hear, or discuss a passage in the Bible, it seems as if I'm not learning - I'm just left questioning.
We were at a conference this weekend. The theme was from Mark chapter 9 verse 50. We are to have salt in ourselves and live at peace with each other. Sounds great... but after however many sessions I sat through, I was only left with questions. What does salt represent in the Bible? Truth? Love? Grace? Wisdom? Why are these things not explained if we are to have salt, be salt, and use salt?
Is there something wrong with me? What am I not seeing that everyone else seems to have no problem with? Because really, all that stuff sounds great, all the lessons were well-studied and wonderful. But I have no basis if I don't know what in the world you're talking about.
Then the Bible study verses this week. After about day 3, I wrote in my study journal: "It seems as if all answers are turning into questions instead of the opposite. I just don't know..."
What commandments must we follow?
What does it mean to walk as Jesus did?
I wish I had answers this week, really. But all I have are questions. More and more it seems as if all I have are questions. But maybe that's how I will learn.